Saturday, June 2, 2012

A very personal goal




Today was a very special day for me, one that gives great joy and also hope for a new beginning. A new chapter in my life. A very personal one that will lead me to getting closer to a very personal goal. Today Shaklee Corporation announced their new team of bloggers that will share with the world their progress in weight loss. Team #Cinchspiration is the name of the team and I... I am one of the members!

It brings me great joy, hope, excitement and at the very same time I am nervous and afraid. You might ask how losing weight can bring all these emotions when what would matter the most is being healthy. Let me share with you in a more personal way why this is important to me and why I feel the way I do.

Losing weight is not an easy task for me, for the past two years I have been struggling with finding my motivation. Finding my will power, even with my husband losing all his weight and being healthy I still struggle with my own choices in food. I eat when I am sad, frustrated, mad, upset and I also eat when I am happy, when I am at peace. I like food, I like eating ice cream when it is hot. I like eating potato chips when we are traveling on the road. Food is everywhere for me. I am not always eating fatty foods, I also enjoy fruits and vegetables but I didn't reach the weight I am at  today by eating fruits and vegetables. I am at 242 pounds because of my poor food choices. 



Twelve years ago I was graduating from University, wearing a comfortable size 8 and sometimes even a size 6. I was preparing myself for a big change in my life: moving out of my parents home. 

I was ready to start my new life in San Diego and ready to take on the world. Armed with a degree and an awesome job in Corporate America and soon to be engaged. 

I had it all.

I felt comfortable in my own body.

I felt confident of what I was capable of doing and how much success I would have.

I moved into the home of family friends and even though there was a full size kitchen which I could use, I very rarely used it. I was experiencing making my own choices. Deciding what to do, where to go, what to eat.



My choice? 

Fast food! I have a love for burgers, fries, shakes, pizza, tacos and more. 

Eating out was something I did twice and even three times a day!

My poor meal choices were soon noticed as my jeans wouldn't go beyond my thighs within 4 months of this move. Our wedding was being planned and so off to the Dietitian I went, I did lose some weight but now I was a comfortable size 14. I didn't worry much for my wedding dress, it was tailored made. From choosing the design to the material the dress was made to fit me not the other way around.



However when we were two weeks away from the big day, I remember deciding that morning that enough was enough so I went on a Papaya and greens diet losing some of the extra weight and wearing my wedding gown loosely at the ceremony. So much so that in our wedding pictures my husband had to pull the dress in my back so it looked fitted. 



Fast forward to January 2005 when I found out I was pregnant with our first child and  "all bets were off". No more junk food, no more oily/greasy food, no more fast food. I ate as much fruit and vegetables as I could and would get nauseous at the sight or smell of my beloved burgers and pizza. I didn't have cravings, I had food aversions. Over the course of this pregnancy I lost a total of 35 pounds! I was eating healthier than ever, drinking water and avoiding carbs and grease. I continued to loose some weight but slowly returned to my pre-pregnancy weight and then some. The same happened with my second pregnancy, again I ate as healthy as possible losing 30 pounds over the course of the pregnancy. A couple of months after I was at it again, carbs, grease, junk food.




Today I am at the heaviest weight I have ever been and sad about it. I still am as active as I can with my kids, we ride bikes, go for walks, run, swim. I do know that the weight pulls me down, sometimes makes it double as hard for me to be as active as I'd like other times I completely forget about it and do my own thing. 

For the longest time I didn't know what my body looked like, we didn't have a full size mirror in our bedroom. So when I did go into our kids room I wouldn't look at myself in the mirror, so denial is the word that comes to mind. I would only get to see my face, neckline and down to my elbows yet I still didn't see how overweight I was.


When we moved a couple of weeks ago, I was feeling sad, frustrated, depressed and sometimes very emotional even moody. Why? oh Why did I feel like that when I was happy for our change? Turns out we now have a mirror, a full size mirror that allows me to see my complete body how it is. 

Not the best image I've seen of myself, my thighs are large so much so that they rub against each other when I walk. Running is out the question as it turns into jogging.

Shopping for clothes is not appealing to me, it is actually depressing and frustrating. Yes there are clothes for "plus sized" women, however I stand at 5'1 tall. My legs are short and so is my torso so when I shop for tops most of the time they are too large for me. My shoulders don't align with the "plus sized" tops seams. Pants? well that is a whole other story, they always need to be hemmed because they are a couple of inches too long. If I get petite they look odd.



To be able to just walk by any store and say: "I like that top/pant/skirt" and to just walk in and purchase it would be uncharted territory for me for the past twelve years....

So today, I'd like to thank Shaklee Corporation for giving me this opportunity, new hope and helping to boost my confidence. Having a great support system is important and I am happy to say that since I shared the news with family and friends they are all being very supportive and I am very grateful for that.

Follow my journey as I prepare to loose my unhealthy habits and re-learn to make healthier choices. Follow me and Team #Cinchspiration as we support each other and loose weight and enjoy healthier lives.

Our progress will be documented on Twitter, Facebook, Pinterest  so make sure you "like" and "follow" all of the social media platforms mentioned to get updates. Follow hashtag #Cinchspiration too.

And don't forget to check back here on my blog for pictures and my progress.  

Here's to a new chapter, to getting healthier and being more active! 




This is a sponsored post as part of the Shaklee Corporation’s Team #Cinchspiration Campaign. I have received free products, online support and incentives for participating. All opinions are and photographs my own. Results and experiences are unique for each person, so results may vary. People following the weight  loss portion of Shaklee 180 can expect to lose 1-2 pounds a week.

46 comments:

  1. Maribel -- I can relate to so much of your own journey! This is an awesome opportunity to be a part of and it's your time to turn it all around! You can do it!

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    1. Thank you for your encouraging words Wendy, I am going to turn my ship around so that I can lead a better life for myself and my family :)

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  2. You are brave not only to write about this, but to take on the challenge of losing weight. There is nothing more difficult than controlling what we eat - I have struggled with it for 50 years - and anyone who says "it's simple, less calories, more exercise," has never had to battle the urge to indulge that can be so overwhelming. I look forward to watching you on your journey to a successful weight loss...however much that may be for you!

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    1. Exactly, it is so difficult to loose weight. Success for me has began as I am taking charge of my health... ;) hopefully I will regain my health 100% :) and thank you for following me on my journey.

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  3. Great post and go go go you can do it!!!

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    1. Thanks Diane, I will give it my all! ;)

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  4. Wishing you the best of luck. I know how hard losing weight can be and finding the right way to lose it. I am excited to follow you through this transition and hope to be able to use your recommendations for this product.

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    1. Thank you Diana, it is hard to loose weight... but I will put all my effort in doing so, because I'm always tired and need to have more energy to lead the life I would love to lead. Riding bikes, running... I would love to be a runner... I have always wanted to say "I run! I just ran 5 miles" never have those words been spoken by me.

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  5. Thanks for sharing your story and your journey with us. If anyone deserved to be apart of this challenge it's definitely you. I look forward to following you on this fun challenge =)

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    1. Aw, thank you Jamie :) I do like challenges so I can't wait to share my progress. ;)

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  6. You are my inspiration Maribel! I can't wait to follow you on your adventure. I'm looking forward to learning about Cinch,too. Hugs!

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    1. Thank you Melissa, but in reality you are all my inspiration! With your support, words of encouragement and stories I am feeling inspired! :)

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  7. So proud of you for sharing your story. I know it wasn't an easy decision to be so open and honest about your weight struggle. You are going to rock this challenge because I know you have what it takes to make that healthy change for you and your family. You will come out the other side feeling stronger and having more energy. Can't wait to follow you on this journey.

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    1. Thank you Carolyn, it was definitely not easy... but I slept on it and then hit publish... and yes this is for better health and a better example for my family. :) thank you again for your support ;)

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  8. Maribel
    I know you can do it.. believe in yourself the power is in you, no one says is easy nothing is.
    You have a beautiful family, they need you , but most important YOU DESERVE IT.. if lives is giving you this opportunity there is a reason, so glad it came to you.
    You are a beautiful person inside and outside. There is an stron woman in you capable of doing. Go for it girl you can do it.. I know you very well .Love you
    Proudly Mom..

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  9. Good luck!! I can't wait to see your progress in action!

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    1. Me too! I am getting so excited that I want to see the progress already ;)

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  10. Good luck to you (and the rest of the team); I'll be looking forward to reading your posts and progress!

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    1. Thank you, yes I am part of a team... so best of luck to all of us! that's what makes it fun too because we can support each other.

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  11. Bravo! You can do it! I'll be looking forward to your progress. I need to start my own effort. Like, soon. Really. It's so hard. I'm pulling for you!

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    1. Thank you Lex, it is hard. It is more difficult than it seems.

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  12. As I was reading your post I thought of my own personal journey of weight lose. I had always been the same weight, never varied much up until my best friend was murdered. I gained weight so fast it made my head spin. No matter what I did, I couldn't take it off. Then I finally went to a grief and trauma counsel to help me deal with this senseless tragedy. That is when I learned about grief weight. I needed to let my friend go in my mind before I could make any progress. It took some time but I am now 40 lbs lighter, not quit back to the pre-tragedy weight but I am much happier. I still miss my friend but I am not trying to keep her by carrying around the extra weight. Sigh... What we do to ourselves some times. Thanks for sharing. I am rooting for you. :-),Susan Cooper from SoCal Lady Bloggers

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    1. I am sorry your friend was murdered. I know losing a friend or a family member is difficult to handle. I am glad you found out what was happening and corrected and are on your way to a healthier you. We do so much to our body. I am ready to make a u-turn and go back to caring for me. Because as my aunt once told me: "on a flight the flight attendant tells you to first put on the mask and then after you care for yourself to put the mask on children and elderly" right? Well if as a mother/wife/daughter/sister I don't take care of myself how am I going to care or set example for my loved ones? Thank you for sharing your story Susan, I am rooting for you too :)

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  13. I'm so excited that you have the opportunity to address something that has been the source of so much frustration/pain/anxiety/etc. It's not easy to put this out to the world, but I'm so proud that you did.

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    1. Thank you Ginger, in all honesty I typed it last night and had to sleep on it. I knew it was going to be read and my family would see what I've been feeling. I have always been ok with whatever people say about my body/weight. What bothered me was that I am my worst critic and I judged myself so harshly that I would eat to calm my frustration.. it was/is a vicious cycle.

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  14. Thank you for sharing your struggle. Good luck to you, I know you are going to surpass every goal you set for yourself,

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    1. Thank you, I am going to be realistic with my goal and not want to pressure myself to go back to size 6/8 as I was 12 years ago. I am a mom now and am 12 years older, my lifestyle as a stay at home mom doesn't allow me to be at the gym all day and it's ok with me. I just want to be healthy and set a better example for my kids. Better and healthier eating habits and be much more active! run with them without gasping for air or feeling a jiggle here and there would be awesome ;)

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  15. Good luck with Team #Cinchspiration - I'm a member, too and I can't wait to get started!

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    1. I know! I am counting the days! I love our team.. Thank you for reading my post and commenting... I am slowly reading everyone's blog and getting to know each of our team members.

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  16. Good for you for taking this on! I know you can do it! What a great and honest post. Good luck!!

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    1. Thank you Emmy, I had to be honest with myself first to start this... :) so it was a little bit of a challenge to hit "publish" but in the end I did.. :) Thank you for the good wishes... :)

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  17. We are very excited to have you join Team #Cinchspiration!

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  18. Thanks for this post. I'm happy to be a Team #Cinchspiration member with you and look forward to all of us achieving our goals!

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    1. Hi Karen, I'm glad to be part of this great Team #Cinchspiration! and also look forward to everyone's progress and cheering each other... :)

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  19. Maribel! Congratulations on deciding to take this journey! It's so hard to make changes sometimes but exciting when we make that choice. I need to tackle a few myself...

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    1. Thank you Elle, so true. Change is hard to accept most of the time. I realized this year I don't do well with change, even though all my life has been of change. Working in Logistics and Customs compliance meant dealing with law changes every single day and I dealt with it, but when it is something personal like eating habits I shut my emotions down and block them. Thank you for taking time to read this "confession" and commenting. It means a lot to me to have the support I am getting. It is fueling up my start and hopefully will keep me focused when I needed it, because let's be honest losing weight is not an easy goal. ;)

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  20. I'm so excited to see your progress, Maribel! Congrats!

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    1. Thank you! I'm excited too, I'm like a kid day dreaming about running! :)

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  21. That is wonderful! Best of luck with your journey.

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    1. Thank you Andie! I appreciate your wishes ;)

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  22. Great post! Welcome to Team #Cinchspiration!

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    1. Thank you Krista! I'm excited to be in this team with you and all the wonderful ladies that are part of Team #Cinchspiration! :) Thank you for taking the time to read and comment on my blog :)

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  23. Thank you for sharing your journey. Best wishes as you take on this challenge. YOU CAN DO IT!!!

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    1. Thank you for the words of encouragement Colleen, I am excited about starting soon and can't wait. That is actually going to be my motto: I CAN DO IT! ;) thank you for visiting and taking the time to encourage me. It means a lot.

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